well, hey.

i wanted to make a quick post.  i saw an online comic the other day in which the protagonist was writing his blog…all posts were about his desire to write more.  he never actually wrote anything.  i identify with this a bit currently…particularly because my internet access has become greatly restricted due to, well, not having internet at home.  i get online about once a week.

anyway, for what it’s worth, a quick update: i’ve been working a lot, which is good for the cashflow (student loan repayments begin very shortly, which sucks, massively) but not good for the, well, everything else.  i don’t hate my jobs.  washing dishes at famous dave’s isn’t my great career choice, but it’s over as soon as i punch out, and other than the feeling of drowning in unwashed bar-be-que  pans and dirty buffalo soap water,  isn’t all that bad while i’m there.  kohl’s  is a bit of a problem because of their constant, “let  me only schedule you for an un-livable 24 hours a week, forcing you to get a second job, but then let me add you at less-than-twenty-four-hours notice and guilt/pressure you into working whenever i want.”  again, i don’t hate it when i’m working there…the work is benign, and since i’m not a manager, i don’t really have to get caught up in all the holiday-at-a-retail-establishment bullshit.  and since i’ve recently been loading asimov audiobooks onto my mp3 player, i can pass the time relatively easily.  to repeat, though i really, really wish that my schedule at the beginning of the week at least closely reflected the hours i’ve worked at the end of the week, it’s steady employment, and i can’t complain that much.

anyway, i’ve never really viewed my blog as a “this is what’s been going on in the mundane aspects of my life” sort of thing, i do not wish to labor on that extensively here.  there are two purposes for which my blog has use, and i will attempt to briefly address my failure in both regards in the following paragraphs.

the first, and most important to me, is my writing.  i doubt seriously that anyone cares deeply about my little stories, or has missed with any consideration the generally meaningless updates thereof.  but, as stated, it is very important to me.  and if any reader has given it the slightest thought, take this as reassurance: i have been writing.  dry, which i am becoming more and more convinced will be the title of my science-fiction serial, is still under construction.  the ideas are developing, albeit slowly.  still, progress is being made.  i have, in fact, precociously began the actual scripting of the first episode.  this, despite my plan to begin writing episodes only in twenty-ten’s january.  i have a half-written blog post, saved, which will explain this a bit more, and so i won’t belabor the details here.  in brief, i have developed a character that i believe will by my focal point, and his story is evolving handsomely, if slowly.  so much work to do.  these things don’t come easily to me…but i love them.  so we’re working.  it still think january is a realistic target.

the second are my thoughts on, plainly put, god.  i was told the other day that i think about god more than most people who believe in him.  this might perhaps be true.  i have some more thoughts, but do not have the time to write them as of now.  perhaps one day soon.

lastly, i would like to say that issac asimov has become my new hero.  i have read the first of his foundation series, but have listened to the second and third, and am currently listening to the fourth, on my mp3 player.  the man is epic, and interestingly, i think now that i have done a small amount of research on him, believes many of the things that i do.  all the more sense it makes, then, that i love his novels.  i’m sure i’ll be writing a considerable bit on him in the future.  stay tuned, for any who might be interested.

that’s all for now.  if any of my friends read this, i miss hanging out with you.  i hope to develop a system soon where i might see people that i love while simultaniously working my odd hours.  i have hope.  know that i love you.

“…if he is neither, why call him god?”

- matthew